…. and a quick update.
What a difference a year makes, right? Whenever I think about it, my heart wants to explode with gratefulness and happiness. One year ago I was scheduling our consultation appointment with Nashville Fertility Center. One year ago my OB/GYN looked Trey and I in the eyes and told us he was at the end of his rope. He did not know what else to do, but he was determined not to give up and he didn’t want us to give up either. We left his office with a referral to see a specialist at Nashville Fertility Center. My heart was shattered. I was terrified. I was angry. I was so disappointed.
Yesterday, the twins and I had our second NST (non-stress test). As I was laying in the chair hooked up to all of my monitors, my OB/GYN came in to chat and see how I was doing. He asked, “Have we scheduled your C-Section yet? We need to do that.” He told us it would be ideal to do it during week 37. We reminded him week 37 is the week of Christmas. That’s fine with me, but I know my doctor has four girls at home. I wanted to make sure HE would be delivering our babies. He left the room for a few minutes. When he came back, he said, “December 26th. That will get you through Christmas with your son and you will be just over 37 weeks then.” I was in shock. I was excited. I was scared all at the same time. For the last 30 something weeks I’ve known I cannot be pregnant forever and eventually my babies would have to come out so we can share them with everyone else, but at the same time… we worked so hard, prayed so hard, and waited so long just to be pregnant. I’m not ready for it to be over. Yes. I’m ready to see their little faces. I’m ready to be able to get out of bed without needing someone to give me a push. I’m ready to not have to worry about my bare belly peeking out from under maternity shirts that are suddenly too small. I’m ready to hold and rock our little miracles. I’m ready to read them stories and see their sweet smiles. I’m ready for all of that! I really am. It just all seems to have flown by to me. I feel like May 9th (the day I cheated and took a HPT before my first beta) was just yesterday. I’ve met women who have said they felt like they were pregnant forever. Me? I feel like I’ve only been pregnant for a little while even though it has been a full 33 weeks already. We have a date set for our C-Section. Ryker and Averlee will be here on December 26th unless they decide to choose their own birthday between now and then. This is all so real. My heart is so full and so excited, but I’m scared at the same time. God is trusting us with these two precious little miracle lives.
One year ago I never imagined I would be really super pregnant at Thanksgiving this year. I never imagined I would be expecting twins! One year ago I wasn’t even sure I would ever carry another child in my womb. I’m carrying two and we have been blessed with a healthy, happy twin pregnancy. I’m so thankful. I’m so humbled. I’m so blessed. God is so good! He heard every single prayer that was sent up on our behalf and He answered those prayers… times two.
We have so much to be thankful for this year. I just do not feel like this post does it justice. Words cannot describe how full my heart is this year.
…. and a quick update.